Friday, October 12, 2012


Blast from the past:

Here's an old post I've written ages ago, but I feel it's adequate for the current me. So yea, enjoy the change!

Change..Why is it that some changes in life are so difficult to take? And why some has struggled to cope well with new changes in life?

I believe change is an inevitable part of life. It challenges one to let go of the past, especially the comfortable, old ways of doing. Change is just like a wall that one must strive to climb over it.

Alexander Graham Bell wrote, "When one door closes another door opens; but if we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones which open for us."

Too often, have we sulked over past failures and thinking what should have been and what could have been rather than looking forward. Why? Why are we scared of changes! Simple..We hold on to the old because we still treasure it, may it be a relationship or the passing of someone, who was dear to you. It was sentimental. It was something special.

True. I’ve tried hard and long enough to try to keep things in my life unchanged, and pretend that things were still the way it used to be. But, what gone is gone. And hey, there are still millions of doors just waiting for you to open it.

Change is just like an illusion that one can manage just by controlling the world around you. As the great Gandhi said, "You must be the change you wish to see in the world. . Change is most effectively managed from within ourselves!"

Changes are hard but what is there you can do about it? Learn to let go ! Let go of your security blankets and abandon former perceptions. Only then you will move forward and feel better about it.

Change, like everything in life, can be beneficial when harnessed.

Now, where is that door that Ghandi was talking about..

Monday, August 20, 2012

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

"So my friend, how is your walk with Christ ?" asked Elder Lee. "GOOD ! Not Bad !" - those were the options to cut the conversation short, but instead I said, "Being born in a Christian family and being one by default has it's perks and yeah it isn't easy." Before he could start replying my answer, I've reached my stop and we said our goodbyes. 

A few weeks back, I was doing my routine trips to my uni and was standing next to a missionary in the tram. He kept looking at me, waiting for the right time to share the gospel. Hahha, once I had eye contact with him, the young Chinese chap muttered: "How are you ? Name's Elder". After the usual formalities, I told him that I was a Christian and I'm already attending the church in Melbourne Central, just to reduce his effort of sharing the good news with me. Fast forward to the part where he ask how's my christian life. Well that's exactly how I feel right now with regards to my Christian life, not going up nor going down, Stagnant. In fact, there are some parts doubting my own faith. 

You see, being born in a Christian family and receiving the good news since young has made me kinda numb to Christianity. Furthermore, unlike some of the church members, I'm a rebellious and lets say a curious soul who wants to know more rather than just accepting the truth. But lately, through out all the CGs, and Sunday school classes, I realize is it really that good being a Christian ? For example, just the other day in CG, I suddenly got really fed up with the fact that during the old testament, we gentiles were all condemned to death and life in eternal hell. I mean, WHATS UP WITH THAT ?! Why would God create us and just protect the Jews but destroy all others, are we not HIS children ? If so, why create us or rather why put the tree of knowledge and eternity in the garden in the first place. Well, I guess one possible explanation is JUST BECAUSE HE CAN ? (from "Prometheus"), which is pretty depressing.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still 100% grateful and I guess by His Grace we were all given a second chance to live eternally. It just all these little thoughts are putting questions and doubts in my little human mind. Ever since I was a kid, I was spoon-fed with all the christian stories and how wonderful our God is. But here's the problem, like many who are the same like me, we have not personally experience the wonderful Love of God, or rather are still yearning for more. It's pretty simple: How can we appreciate the significance of light with the absence of darkness ? I really admire those new Christians, who are so recharged and so strong in faith, probably cause they have experience the light ? I don't know. 

So, here's the big question and let this be my prayer as well. Can we truly appreciate light if we are in a brightly lit room or must we venture out to the darkness...Hear my prayer O Lord and guide me. Amen. 

I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls, these city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

 I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one, Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Somewhere only we know

Can't help it, after listening to Keane's song, I realize how underrated this band is. Their songs are just mythical and touches the heart ! So, here's my post dedicating to one of my favorite bands of all time, KEANE ! Their songs helped me through my first break-up and subsequent ups and downs of life as well.

When their first hit single "Somewhere only we know" came out, Brandon played it like 10,000million times a day. After almost 7years after I first heard the song, somehow I still find myself listening to this song over and over again. It is such a beautifully made song with a hidden story behind it !  It's just magical ! The song seems to talk about the simplicity of life against the complexity of reality, but at the same time, it felt like a sad love story bout a couple who used to love each other. Due to the challenges of life perhaps, they eventually got drifted apart, and one of them (in my mind, it's the guy) is trying to salvage the relationship by going back to the place which they first met and fell in love. I guess everyone has their own interpretation haha, so yea, put aside all the Gangnam Style and K-POP tunes for a minute or two, and check out some of their songs..and decide for yourself, whether these guys are good :)

"And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know? 
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go,
Somewhere only we know"